kvmf:

Who is Kolton?

Kolton was born January 2, 2020 in Bolivar, MO. He was the first baby in our town born into the new year. So he was pretty special from the start. Kolton had the biggest and brightest personality, anyone who met him adored him. He was the sweetest sour patch baby you would ever know.

He was such a happy boy. So loved and missed everyday.

September 10, 2021 turned out to be Kolton’s last day on this earth. It was a Friday afternoon, the kids usually went to stay the night with their grandparents. Kolton didn’t usually go but this day was different for some reason.

Around 5pm that evening, I got a phone call telling me that my sweet baby boy was found floating, face down and unresponsive in the swimming pool. He drowned. Mind you, everything was in place. The fenced in pool, gates with locks and more than enough supervision.

Everything started spinning out of control it seemed like. It felt like an eternity getting to the hospital and waiting to be taken back into the room they was continuing to preform life saving measures. Seeing one of your children in that condition, tubes and wires hooked up everywhere, is like a nightmare. It was too late for my baby.

7:31pm they called time of death.

You never think it’ll happen to your family until it does.

kvmf:

Water Safety Tips

1.) EDUCATE- Educate yourself and your child on water and swimming pool rules.

2.) EMPHASIZE DANGERS- Teach your children the dangers of different forms of waters such as a swimming pool, lake or even the bathtub.

3.) START EARLY- Begin teaching your children about the dangers of water and teach them life saving skills.

4.) SWIM GEAR- Get your children their own life jacket that fits properly. NO FLOATIES!!! Floaties provide a false sense of security.

5.) SWIM LESSONS- Start teaching them life saving skills as early as 10 months old.

6.) LAYERS OF PROTECTION- Be sure gates and doors that give access to pool area are locked, install door alarms, ect.

the-hidden-qcsg-diary-of-jayne:

Dear You,

I hate to see you like this.
I hate that I can’t just take your pain into me, so that you can be free of it. I’d give absolutely anything to see your beautiful smile spread across your face and to see the starlight twinkle in your eyes again. But you being you, you won’t let someone else shoulder your burden. I’d carry it for a thousand years if it’d make it easier on you. All I want is the chance to save you just once. One time, because you, your very existence saves me daily. Please let me in. Maybe I’m supposed to make you feel better. I love you. I love every part of you. From all the things good about you, your humor, your laugh, your compassion, your ambition and drive. And all the things that aren’t so pretty, like your temper, the way you hold grudges, the way you get down on yourself. I love your good, your bad, your beautiful and your ugly. And I want it all. Every part of you, everyday. No matter what. But for now its not in the cards. I pray that its written in the stars, our future. And with all of that said, won’t you let me put a little love in your void, you never know it could be all that you’re missing. By the way, I’d still love nothing more than to ease your worried mind. Anything you need, anything at all and I’ll do what I can to make it so. Don’t you know how worth it you are? Do you even have the slightest clue as to what I’d do for you? I wish on everything I am, everything I have that you had the tiniest inkling of my love and adoration for you. And with a love like that we could overcome anything and everything, even this darkness that has a hold of you right now. It would even outshine my own darkness. We could be each others addiction, and create beautiful things out of it. I’d give you my heart, my soul, my breath, my blood in my veins if it’d make it right for you. If I could only tell you all of this. This letter will do for now. It will have to, just like all of the others before it. Until the day I die, I’ll spill my heart for you. Someday you’ll know. I hope its not too late or too soon. I want to comfort you. I want you in my arms, in my bed. And your lips pressed to mine. For tonight I’ll fall asleep in the next room, with your name on my lips, your face on my mind, and my heart inside your chest. Goodnight my love, sweet dreams, I hope things will look a little brighter in the morning.

Always,

liquidlightandrunningtrees:

“I want him to see the flowers in my eyes and hear the songs in my hands.”

— Francesca Lia Block

astrolocherry:

tw~dv
“its because you are too sensitive”
“its because you feel too much”
“it’s because you are too hard to control”
“it’s because you behave like this or like that”
“it’s because you cannot be trusted”
“it’s because you are too reactive”

“it’s because you show empathy (and i can’t compete with such emotion)”
“it’s because you feel so much (and i don’t feel enough)”
“it’s because you are a free spirit (and i am trapped inside myself)”
“it’s because you behave in a way (that makes me feel things i don’t understand)”
“it’s because you are loved by other people (and i am jealous because i am not)”
“it’s because you know your passion (and i don’t know what mine is)”
“it’s because you are too much of everything (and i am not enough of anything)”

it’s because abuse is always your fault (and i work so hard to make you believe that lie because you are the only one who knows the truth)

tidy-tidings:

missouri-nationalist:

Marriage is good and weddings are great but I hate modern wedding culture. You don’t need to bankrupt yourself to have a nice wedding. Stop supporting the wedding industry, stop buying outrageously priced engagement rings, stop spending 10k on a dress you’ll only ever wear once.

Coming from a professional event planner - weddings are egregiously expensive because companies openly raise prices at the word “wedding.” 

Pro Tip - Never drop the word wedding while planning if you don’t need to. Most things can be for “an event you’re planning.” This obviously doesn’t include things like the venue, DJ (who needs specific wedding songs), and the wedding dress company if you’re going that route versus just buying a dress.

For my wedding I got “discounted” cupcakes, flowers, decor, bridesmaids dresses, groomsman attire, and invitations. I did this by either searching for things that aren’t marketed for weddings or not telling the companies I was working with it was for a wedding. Because honestly, most of the time they don’t need to know why you’re ordering.

These companies target people planning their weddings and markup everything the second “wedding” is said. And it’s said often because people assume the services change exponentially for weddings. They absolutely do not. 

The best example are the cupcakes I had for my wedding. I used a designer cupcake store in town instead of spending $1000 on a wedding cake. If you place a large order of cupcakes with a cake tree for display - it costs about $150 for 100 (which is what I did). When you order their “wedding” package - the price raised to a $700 base for 100 cupcakes. The only other perk includes a “tasting.” Forget that. Our tasting was buying a few cupcakes in flavors we thought we’d like and picked three. It cost maybe $20. 

What these companies do is scummy and targets people who don’t have information about the event industry.

I will yell it from the rooftops until people realize there’s a better way.

little-miss-tragedy:

I put every part of me into trying to make you stay, that I had nothing left to give to myself.

(4/30) by (ds)